My lovelies,
You know that when we say life can change in a second?
That actually happened to me this weekend.
I could not believe it.
Unfortunately, it's not a positive thing.
I am healthy as a little prickly pie (don't know why I chose this reference), so don't worry.
However, after hours of crying and feeling betrayed, pissed, left alone, and just miserable....
....I realized that I am surrounded by happy people, and these happy people are my family and my friends.
I learned that there is always a way.
There has always been a way before for others, so why not me?
My weekend kind of sucked to say the least.
Monday was not pleasant either.
Today, it felt better because I learned more.
BUT, my initial plans to finish my schooling kind of vanished.
Yes, believe it or not.
I am SO close to finishing, SO close to reaching my goal my wish my everything and BAM, shit happens.
I won't get into details because if I do that would not be right.
All I can say is that I have to put it aside.
If you want to know more, ask me. I might email you back with details.
I wanted to vent so badly on here but then decided to let it go.
Sometimes it's not worth it.
Sometimes it's just not right to do this.
It is no one's fault, it is just what it is.
What I learned over the past few years is that whatever we go through, whatever we learn is part of life. It is our purpose to suffer, to go through bad moments in life, and to enjoy the happy times too. Whatever comes along is just part of it and we have to make the best of it.
I am trying my very best to finish this semester with awesome grades.
Write for my incredibly hard professor so that at least I pass with a B
because I doubt she will give me an A.
Find happiness in the next weeks to come - hello Thanksgiving and Christmas.
I will try to call my mom more often, or skype more often because I miss her.
I will try to enjoy the little things, like weekend trips up north with my favorite person.
I will try to enjoy the dogs licking my face and even my stomach making annoying sounds because I might have eaten something that had gluten in it - like just right now. Darn, it's a loud noise.
I will try to make the best of my crappy situation.
I am healthy, and at the moment happy.
All I need to figure out is how to keep the healthy and happy together.
Then I'm sane and can enjoy life even more.
Wish me luck.
Until then,
I might vent from time to time.
Or just plainly post some ridiculous stuff....ya know me and my blog.
I named it Crazy Little World Of Mine for a specific reason.
xoxo