When I grew up I was looking forward to November 1. Yes, not Halloween but November 1. It was the first day during our first half of school year that we got off. I never knew why but I really didn't care either. Today I know what November 1 stands for and although I do not have any classes today, I am not entirely happy. Today, my thoughts are not here in California but with my family and one friend in Europe. My thoughts are also with whoever out there who has lost someone special in his or her life.
But to a slight brighter topic...I cannot believe it is already November. How did that happen? Soon enough 2011 will be history. But of course Christmas needs to happen first. YAY!!! The past ten months have been quite interesting, challenging, eye-opening, tragic, sad, and simply worth it.
Ten months ago I celebrated the New Year with my friends here in California, and baaammm I am back in California - for longer than just the regular month and a half. Ten months ago I didn't know I would find myself in a so-called pickle for the past four weeks and end up sick. I am doing slowly better now, but really I would have never thought of October being such a pain in the butt. Emotional stress, and pressure can make you extremely sick. Trust me. Ten months ago I would not have thought to get sad every time I hear a few particular songs that would remind me of those harsh and brutal three days in March. It pains me and at the same time gives me strength. Ten months ago I would have never thought I'd be writing this today either. Life has changed quite a bit for me. I am not sure whether or not this is the right path in life but hey, don't we all just follow certain paths in life not 250% sure if that path is the right one?
Ten months ago I would have never thought to be much closer to certain friends, and to have lost contact to those that I thought would care more. Life and its constant ups and downs.
In other words...I just wanted to say hello and tell you that yes I am still alive, doing better and looking forward to this month to be a fantastic one. I want to do things, explore places, meet people and friends so I can clearly say that yes, I lived this month as strongly and as beautifully as even possible.
Ten months ago I would have never thought to be much closer to certain friends, and to have lost contact to those that I thought would care more. Life and its constant ups and downs.
In other words...I just wanted to say hello and tell you that yes I am still alive, doing better and looking forward to this month to be a fantastic one. I want to do things, explore places, meet people and friends so I can clearly say that yes, I lived this month as strongly and as beautifully as even possible.
Enough said.
Sorry for the weird post, but it just needed to be said.
Happy November!!!
14 comments :
glad you're still around writing :)
Happy November!
I can identify with you 10000 percent.
Never in a million years would I think I'd be sitting in an apartment in Istanbul right now, with a new husband when the former is barely gone from my memory.
Life has a funny way of determining your outcome, whether or not you expected it.
I am happy that you sound optimistic and positive for the months that lie ahead of you, and I hope that they turn out to be nothing but a string of amazing and refreshing days.
So from someone who knows how you feel, chin up darling girl. xoxo
November is going to be better for you! I can feel it!!!!
Saying what you need to say is always a good thing! November is going to be brilliant! I'm sure of it!
You're going to have a great November Selma :) I've been missing my friends a lot lately too. Happy November!
Happy November Selma!
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I still can't believe that it's november! That seems so strange that it's snowing back home and I'm sitting with a fan blowing on me.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a good November.
2 months left of 2011. You will rock it out girl :-)
it is good to hear from you, wild and all :) :)
The unpredictability of life is pretty amazing! Hope you have a wonderful November ;)
I'm counting on an excellent November as well :) I agree with you so much about not knowing for sure if a path is the right one, you just have to start walking it sometimes and hope it turns out well!
Happy November!!
I'm so so glad you are in CA. I wouldn't be able to see you otherwise!!! Sorry about your sadness - hope your friend is alright! xo.
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