January 16, 2012

Crazy Weekend!

*be forewarned...it's one of those posts again that just needed to be shared. The written kind!

So my lovelies...
I had an interesting weekend.

The quote above applies to all of us, you, me, your neighbor, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, mom, dad, sister, friend, brother, cousin, classmate, and even the horrible teacher you dread seeing. It works for all of us. Reading it over and over again it makes me sad, and question where we are all from. I mean, who do you think I am?! Where I come from? Not the country, or the city, or religion. Put all that aside and focus on me, as a person. A girl. Or heck, a woman who looks like a girl. Think about it. Do you really know me? Do we really know you?
Unless we are related or have been friends for a while...we probably have assumptions but don't necessarily know anything about the other person. I am not saying we should now all open up, but we should think first before we act, say, and just handle things. I'm sure most of us do that already. 

This weekend has proven to me that love has all kinds of different forms. And apparently this weekend it was the nasty kind. It not only shocked me, but worried me mostly. How can love turn its back and become so evil, gross, unfair, and rough? Don't get me wrong now. No physical abuse or anything in that matter happened. BUT, even words can be hurtful (sometimes more than anything else) and I felt useless, sad, alone, and just very much filled with question marks. 

I enjoyed my freedom, and my PJ days/hours, and waking up with a dog facing me...I even enjoyed little things like a dog trying to lick me and really getting into this "I need to lick Selma's face now" - phase...but he failed. :) It made me smile though. I'm telling you little things are the best!!!

But at the same time, I had nightmares, and wondered why people go through what they go through. Yes. And the quote above says...we all have stories to tell (or not), and those stories have shaped us and are shaping us throughout our lives...but is it really worth reliving stories again? Not to me.

Then, Amazon (ThankYouVeryMuch) finally sent me the book I needed for my dreaded speech class. If I haven't mentioned it, I LOVE my speech class (more on that later on another post!). So the first two chapters that are due tomorrow night (and yes, I read them already!) are about communication, life, and listening skills. I read those chapters so quickly because I just couldn't stop. I thought that book was talking to me, explaining why certain things happen and why Saturday night was one awful night for all of us to witness. I wanted to read it out loud and let everyone hear it because truly, I felt the book talked to me. No epiphany though occurred so I still don't know what I'm going to do with my life (hello crazy little world of mine get your s*hit together!!), but still...the book has opened eyes, ears and heart for me!

I love books like this one!

And today, for pretty much the first time in my entire time here in California I have to admit that I am missing Europe! Maybe the little incident on Saturday triggered this feeling, maybe not. Maybe it's reading/following so many of you out there that live in Europe, or are about to move there. Either way I miss Europe today! A lot!!

Or, it's the gloomy day we are experiencing!

But good news is...in approximately four months I'm flying back to Europe!!
Can I get a YAY or a high five, or anything else that might make me even more excited about this than I already am?! Yes?! Please!!!



Christianna said...

Sorry that crazy ish went down. But it sounds like you picked yourself back up like a champ! Good for you!

Oh, here is something to make you more excited about your Europe trip, you'll get to see me! Hahahaha, hopefully before then too, cause it would be silly for both of us to fly all the way to Europe to see each other...

A Life Un-Styled said...

What happened on Saturday doesn't sound pleasant but you seem to have come out of it stronger! Good on you <3

Malin said...

Flying back to Europe for holidays, OR...?

Dree said...

I'm sorry that you had to experience that awfulness, but I'm guessing that person wasn't worth your time anyway. Are you moving back?! I love that you're so excited!!

Why Girls Are Weird said...

Ugh, that's awful. But just push through!

Swissy said...

Aww..I'm sorry to hear you had a bad Saturday. Yeah...sometimes life is just no fair and it hurts. But it only makes us stronger, doesn't it.

Ooooh in that case I'm sending you a BIIIIIIIIG hug from Europe-Switzerland ;))))

Ashley said...

Uhhh, I MISS EUROPE TOO! Can i fly over with you?? :)

Kelsey @ Seattle Smith's said...

Oh my goodness, HIGH FIVE FOR SURE LOVE!!! That's awesome. I want to go to Europe so bad and I can only imagine how you long for it.

Leeann @ Join the Gossip said...

I hope today has been better for you! I am only an email/text (did I give you my number)/30 mins drive away if you ever need anything!!

And in four months are you going for a visit? Or moving back?!

P.S. Our man Timothy Olyphant is back on TV tonight. I am squealing like a little girl right now :)

Unknown said...

Are you going back to visit? Or are you going back because the school year will be ending? I'm sorry that you had a hard day and that someone said something harsh to you. It's unfortunate when people forget to talk out of love instead of anger.

Unknown said...

thanks so much for sharing! I love how honest you are while also not being nasty. (hope that makes sense!)

hope things work themselves out... and have fun going back to Europe for a bit! That should do you good :)

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

Oh no! So I only have four more months to meet you!!! I may be holding in a secret friend!!! Hope your week is better!


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