2 Ways to Make the Most Out of Your Bad Days

Ever had a horrible day? Week? Even month? 

We have all been there. We have all called a certain year one of the worst, even called a decade one of the most horrible ones. It's what we do. Some people even strive to find negativity in order to make their lives feel either better or worse. For a while now, I have been trying to make my life happier, more positive, filled with laughter, smiles, love, good food, and lots of pink and purple {and TV and films, and exciting books}. 

Honestly, since last year in November I have been wondering when my life will be fun, and happy again. My life changed from the moment I learned I couldn't finish my educational plan and it devastated me. Then I decided to go another route and earn money so I could maybe finish it in time. Friends supported me and the guy I had been dating for a while became something steady and permanent. Today I am focusing on the little things that will lead me to more happiness. I still have my bad days. Oh, I do. Ask my favorite person. He keeps saying I wasn't like that a year ago. Probably true. Back then I thought I had all my ducks in a row; straightly lined up and ready to go. 

When I feel sad, alone, and see only the negative things in life...I go for food. 

Don't get me wrong. I won't over-eat. I will try to enjoy healthy snacks. Just like the photo above. I go for fruits, fun "healthy" drinks, and whipped cream {cause I can, and want to}. How I do that? I will try to create something at home, but won't run to WholeFoods right away. I will rather try to find a new place to try around here in the city, and explore. So far, I have been very successful. My favorite person and I have not had a bad experience. The research takes a while because I have to make sure that the place offers gluten free items or a menu, but other than that, it has been fun and definitely lightens up the sad darkness.

The food usually gets me motivated, inspired, and happier. Win win!
I get nutrients, enjoy a date with my man, experience a new restaurant, and get happier? Yes, that's a win!

Second, when I feel most down and don't seem to be motivated to work on anything {not event this blog} I try to find happy photos or videos. It is that simple. I know people who get most creative when they are down, and plan projects {change wallpaper, paint, create jewelry, or  go to meet-up meetings}. Some even go to the gym and work off some steam they had built up over the past weeks or months. I do that too, but it doesn't make me feel whole or smiley. Cute photos or videos of animals on the other hand? Yes, they do.

1) Food
2) Cute animal photos or videos

That simple. So far it has worked for me. I don't want to spend money, and I don't want to be negative all the time. Laughter keeps people healthy and happy, and I am trying to find the good in most things. Maybe not on our water heater in our place, and maybe not in this ridiculous heat. Yet, when I see a squirrel jumping from one tree branch to another I get happy. When I see the turkeys look at me in fear because they think I am about to chase them down the road so I will have an early Thanksgiving dinner I get happy. When I find a perfect pair of boots, or a real leather bag for a great price I get happy. When I see puppies, or kittens stumble over nothing because, let's face it, they are clumsy at that stage in their life, I get happy {PetSmart, Petco, and all those other places thank you for having cute little ones available to look at!}. 

It is the little things.

If riding your bike, and cooking elaborate meals is your thing - then kudos to you.
If running, and getting rid of old clothes on a regular basis is your thing - then kudos to you.

Today, I am trying to smile by recycling my wine bottles, cans, and plastic bottles and get money back.

I will also try write down a Christmas list so I know what to get and send away, and then go look at cute animal videos...just the the following one {an old footage but it still makes me laugh}:

What is your remedy to a bad day{s}?

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Rainy Days

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I had a little gluten problem.
So much for feeling better and being more optimistic with this whole gluten free thing.

I failed and I have been sick for two days now. 

It has cooled down in Southern California and it has been gorgeous.
I went out for the first time today...just one hour.
It's chilly, windy, and gray. I hope it will rain soon because well, it is needed.

How's your Friday?!

Being sick has its advantages...I can read books, drink lots of tea and enjoy possible rain.

Oh and I can finally catch up on my favorite TV shows.

Revenge, Revolution. PLL, HIMYM, and The Vampire Diaries.
There's more but a sick girl can only watch so much.

xoxo

What if...

...you woke up and would not know where you were?

This scenario happened to me twice. Once I forgot I had jet lag and didn't know what was right or left, and once, I just came out of the operation room in a hospital. No worries, I'm okay. This week has been just weird. Not only was it Monday, that once again showed us that we are not invincible nor Godly, and that no matter where you are in the world you always find someone you are linked with or linked to so to speak that had to experience something as horrific (and as newspapers claim it, simply tragic) as what we all saw and heard on Monday. One of our professors ran too. He was fast enough not to be at the finish line when it happened. It just makes our world so much smaller.

So, yes, what wold you do if you woke up and would not know where you were?

I'd hope I'd see the following face. Every. Single. Day.

Yes, sorry. No guy photo. But this little fellow is my guy, too. He needs a bath and a major haircut...but seeing him in the morning curled up next to me on the pillow waiting for me to open my eyes...this is the best. I instantly know where I am. But don't be fooled. He's a cutie pie but has a little demon in him sometimes. Just when he doesn't feel like being the cutie pie and lover he actually has to portray. :) 

So, how's your week so far?
I have to admit I've been a bad blogger.
It's been insane lately...but good thing is, finals are around the corner and after those I can relax. My studies in general are going well. I have awesome friends and classmates who keep me sane and entertained. Who doesn't like random texts at night telling me I'm a sinner because I haven't been out to have Sushi and Sake for the past two months? I just love it. Made my day, trust me.
 

This semester will be rounded up with two concerts, one wedding, a pet expo, the Color Run, my bestie visiting, some shopping moments, beach days, and a pre-birthday party! Then, in June and July I'll be in Europe. I'm already counting down the days until I'm back here in SoCal. Huh? Wait, what? Yes, exactly. That's how much I love it here. ;)

That's it...my random update for today.

Confused? Let me know.
I might as well confuse myself lately.

If you miss me, and want to know what I'm doing follow me on Twitter or Instagram. If I'm not here I'll be certainly over on those sites.

xoxo

Monday Morning Gossip - A little late...but okay!

Happy (Easter) Monday!

How was your weekend?
If you celebrated Easter I hope you had a fabulous time. :)

This weekend was packed. There was babysitting, a baby shower and a baseball game involved. Then Easter Sunday...the usual, church, and fun lunch to see a former teacher of mine. She's that kind of person you want to have around in your life. Whether or not you meet her once or twice or multiple times around the year. She's pure happiness and love combined. I almost forgot how contagious her enthusiasm is and it totally brightened my day. That was my highlight of the weekend.

Other than that, I had a horrible weekend. Especially when it came to my emotional side. There's so much going on I can't fully concentrate, sleep, organize my crap, or just have some me time. We all know how important me time is, and heck it's been hectic. However, life is good so far - it goes on. Blah.

And yes, the above photo was taken this weekend. I went to a Baseball game. One I always wanted to see. Angels vs. Dodgers. For years I'd been a huge Dodgers' fan...and for the past two years I've grown to become an Angels' fan. See my dilemma? Yes, but I was rooting for the red team...and they won. ;)

What I'm looking forward to this week though is getting some more homework done, and seeing family again. Wooohoooooo!! Finally! Fingers crossed everything works out as planned though. 

Let's hope it's gonna be a good week. Today was a horrible day, and I'm super exhausted. It's not even 8.30pm yet but I'm headed to bed soon. :(

I linked up with Leeann over at Join the Gossip.

It's Okay Today...

...to be addicted to Pumpkin Spice Lattes.

...to dislike the 90-degree weather we have been having.

...to get annoyed at people.

...to get irritated too.
...to not be perfect!

...to be a little confused about the future.

...to make decisions based on my level of stress (the less stress the better!)

...to miss driving.
...to crave BBQ chips even though I just had them last night.

...to want to do more over the weekend because being stuck at home SUCKS.

...to pout once in a while.
...to miss my independence (yeah I know!)
...to want to go on a coffee date not just with myself!
...to feel like crying most of the time.
...to be working for school and being done with HW and all before Friday.
...to want to go shopping almost 24/7.
...to feel alone most of the time. (actually NOT, but oh well!)

I'm linking up with Neely and Amber today.

Inspiration is needed. I feel like everything is slipping away.

Last week I was told good news, and then those news kind of threw me off and now I really don't know what to do. Best possible scenario for me is to wait another year and not force myself to finish school so fast. I may be afraid of change and all that (who isn't sometimes, really?!). I just don't like to rush. I hate to be rushed or not have a concrete plan. I'm a little wreck these days.  I just don't like that kind of change. I'll be still in southern California. But, I feel like the older I get the more afraid I am of change, or the possibility of failure, or what not. Where did the old Selma go?! Really.

Either way, I hope you all had a fabulous Labor Day Weekend, and a rather smooth start into a shorter week. Keep your fingers crossed so I can finally enjoy a weekend that fulfills the requirement of a weekend...I do not want to sit in my sweatpants in front of a TV again. I do, but that's not the point. I wanna do that when it's raining outside or so cold I'm afraid I'm about to freeze my toes or something. I did not like my past weekend. Period. The burgers on Monday evening were nice. But Sunday sucked, and Saturday did not turn out as planned which was a huge bummer and I feel bad for having spent money on something I could not enjoy. Great evening, really. Please add MAJOR sarcasm to this. 

...so, it is OK for me to vent and be irritated and also annoyed. Nothing ever is happy and pink and super flowery and all...we all have bad days. I just had a bad weekend. And a rather confusing start into this week. Let's really hope for something better!!

PLEASE! 

xoxo

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F.I.N.A.L.S.

Wish me luck!!

They have arrived.

Finals are upon me!
Yikes.

We all know how I'll be feeling by Wednesday at 10.45am PST.

Exhausted.

And ready for a lot of coffee, sunshine, and fun!

xoxo

Crazy Weekend!

*be forewarned...it's one of those posts again that just needed to be shared. The written kind!

So my lovelies...
I had an interesting weekend.
Literally.

The quote above applies to all of us, you, me, your neighbor, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, mom, dad, sister, friend, brother, cousin, classmate, and even the horrible teacher you dread seeing. It works for all of us. Reading it over and over again it makes me sad, and question where we are all from. I mean, who do you think I am?! Where I come from? Not the country, or the city, or religion. Put all that aside and focus on me, as a person. A girl. Or heck, a woman who looks like a girl. Think about it. Do you really know me? Do we really know you?

Unless we are related or have been friends for a while...we probably have assumptions but don't necessarily know anything about the other person. I am not saying we should now all open up, but we should think first before we act, say, and just handle things. I'm sure most of us do that already. 

This weekend has proven to me that love has all kinds of different forms. And apparently this weekend it was the nasty kind. It not only shocked me, but worried me mostly. How can love turn its back and become so evil, gross, unfair, and rough? Don't get me wrong now. No physical abuse or anything in that matter happened. BUT, even words can be hurtful (sometimes more than anything else) and I felt useless, sad, alone, and just very much filled with question marks. 

I enjoyed my freedom, and my PJ days/hours, and waking up with a dog facing me...I even enjoyed little things like a dog trying to lick me and really getting into this "I need to lick Selma's face now" - phase...but he failed. :) It made me smile though. I'm telling you little things are the best!!!

But at the same time, I had nightmares, and wondered why people go through what they go through. Yes. And the quote above says...we all have stories to tell (or not), and those stories have shaped us and are shaping us throughout our lives...but is it really worth reliving stories again? Not to me.

Then, Amazon (ThankYouVeryMuch) finally sent me the book I needed for my dreaded speech class. If I haven't mentioned it, I LOVE my speech class (more on that later on another post!). So the first two chapters that are due tomorrow night (and yes, I read them already!) are about communication, life, and listening skills. I read those chapters so quickly because I just couldn't stop. I thought that book was talking to me, explaining why certain things happen and why Saturday night was one awful night for all of us to witness. I wanted to read it out loud and let everyone hear it because truly, I felt the book talked to me. No epiphany though occurred so I still don't know what I'm going to do with my life (hello crazy little world of mine get your s*hit together!!), but still...the book has opened eyes, ears and heart for me!

I love books like this one!

And today, for pretty much the first time in my entire time here in California I have to admit that I am missing Europe! Maybe the little incident on Saturday triggered this feeling, maybe not. Maybe it's reading/following so many of you out there that live in Europe, or are about to move there. Either way I miss Europe today! A lot!!

Or, it's the gloomy day we are experiencing!

But good news is...in approximately four months I'm flying back to Europe!!
Can I get a YAY or a high five, or anything else that might make me even more excited about this than I already am?! Yes?! Please!!!

Ciao!!!

January

Hey y'all!!!

How has this new year been for you so far?
I hope you started it beautifully and are enjoying life and love and everything else.

My old year (the day of the 31st!) ended with a fabulous get together with my bestie Sierra and my other bestie from Philadelphia. We had tons of fun exploring areas we either had heard of or had known existed but never had a chance to even visit or go/drive through. It's always the same. Tourists know more about our the city we live in than we do. Sadly. But I think we covered everything on my friend's list that she desperately wanted to see or drive through...and if not...we shall cover all that next time she's in town!!

I have also taken pictures while my friend A. visited sunny southern California and I'll share them soon. So stay tuned. I promise I'll share them.

However, right now all I want is rest and find my little path on this blog world again. I have been a bit missing in action which can be indeed a relief for a while...but to be honest, and we all agree on that I know that much, I missed blogging. I missed reading your entries and following your fun adventures, or not (!), or just reading about new decoration, life events and what not. My daily inspiration reading was neglected and now I am hoping to catch up on everything!

Then again, school is back in session next week (yuck!) and I hope I find some downtime to entertain you all.

Now here's a little question for you my lovely readers (old or new)...is there anything in particular you would want to hear more about, read more about, or so? Let me know. There are moments in my life I feel I have nothing to share or talk about (although again I have to say there's really no such thing as a writer's block!), but if there's something you'd think would be awesome for me to share or write about let me know. I'm open for suggestions.

With that being said...let me pop in two more aspirins and sleep.
If you are following me on twitter, you know I've been having a huge headache today and it seems to go nowhere. I even left the living room and headed to my room so I can quietly stay sane and not cry all the time because this stupid head is having issues today. I'm telling you, loud noises and even people talking is not the best thing right now.

xoxo

Monday Blues

Okay, guys...I was spoiled last week (and didn't post about it...boo on me!) and now this week is going to be a b****. To top it all I am getting sick, too. Isn't this lovely? I have an exam Monday morning, a horrible class after that exam and a paper due Wednesday. My stomach already bugs me because I know I am going to fail this paper. I put so much effort in it but it's not what my professor wants or appreciates. I mean, I don't want to be one of those people writing a paper in 30 minutes and get an A. Well, scratch that, I actually want to be one of those...but I am not. I feel I need to read more, explore and research more. Apparently whatever I've been doing for the past almost four weeks isn't enough and she thinks I'm not doing my job. It pisses me off. Believe me. Then again, two very different world collide when we both sit down and it is not very helpful. Not even challenging. I'm just irked and very stressed.

With that being said...I will be a little more missing in action but hopefully will be back later on this week...hopefully. I miss you all.

Happy thoughts are needed.
Always.
We all know that.

Trust me, my diet after this Wednesday is going to be very sweet!!!!!

Hope you had a great weekend and a fantastic week!!

Exhausted

Sorry guys, I am be very MIA this week.

Too much is going on, too much is bothering me, and I am about to have a mental breakdown.

This will is a crazy one...but I promise I'll be back soon...I hope.

xoxo,

Selma

Ugh

Enough said.

Wish me luck tomorrow (obviously we already have a test!)...I'm already freaking out!!!

My Thoughts

Thank you for thinking of me, and sending me positive vibes.
They are still needed for the next few days though.

Life has kept me busy for the past few days and it is not over.
I will have major changes going on in my life and I will tell you once I can share more. Right now it is not definite and although I have mixed feelings I know I am doing the right thing by going for what I wanted in the first place.

I am trying. 

If I don't try I will never know, right?

The picture above pretty much describes me. Sitting on the floor, exhausted, alone.
As I am typing this I have 5682 things on my mind that I need to take care of before those big changes happen. Am I excited? Yes, and No. You know, taking this step is one thing, going through with it is another. Right now I doubt my decision. Yes I do. Some of you know what I am going for and where I am headed and this may surprise you. But yes, I am doubting my decision. Not just today, for a while. However, I know me, I know that I always doubt first and then realize that it is not that bad. 

It will be part of my life. Something to look back on when I am older.

Something to share while going through this journey.
It is already part of my life.

Believe me, I didn't want to go to Como either, and then I was the one who booked the trip and wanted to go because really...if I don't try and see what's out there I will never know how I feel about it, if I like it, hate it, or just wish to do something else.

Right now I am swimming in an emotional sea. It will be okay. It will be fine. I will not be alone, and who knows what the future brings...we certainly don't. We never do.

So, with that said...I am done for today.
Sometimes bad days need to happen, no????

BUT, even when I am down I still find time or make time to share some guest blog love at my friend's blog while she is having fun in California.

Happy Thursday everyone.
WOW, I can't believe this week is already almost over!!!
Crazy!!!!

Thank You

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Life continues.
Spring arrived, and I'm loving it.
At least something this week brightening up my day.
Monday was a very bad day, Tuesday was a slight bit better, Wednesday was sunny and warm and I saw my favorite soul singer walking towards me (I love those moments - and may I say his family is super cute!), and today, Thursday...only good things will happen.

Thank you all.
I never thought something like this would hit our family so suddenly.

Her friends are grieving, her parents and brother are well, you know. And the rest of the family well, we are trying to live life every minute, and imagine she's in a great place now wondering why she's up there after a fun evening out with her best friend.

To all of you my lovely readers...wherever you are...if you find yourself going out and driving around...no matter what time it is...if you feel just a slight bit tired, even the tiniest amount, get cash and take a cab back home or ride with public transportation. You may not have the funds for a ride like that but in the end it's always worth it. Always. And I hope I do not have to mention the all-time saying: Never ever drink and drive.

One wonderful thing I can be proud of is that alcohol was not involved!!!

Double thank you. 

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And yes, even during times like these...happy thoughts and moments are important!


xoxo,

♥ S ♥

Happy Saturday!

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Aunt Selma is gonna babysit today.
Not sure if I'm gonna bake something but I need to entertain some kids tonight! Yay!

Hope you had a fantastic week, and an even greater weekend ahead of you.
My week was okay - my weekend is going to be pretty lame except for the babysitting part. 

But to sum a lame week up I had my fun and happy moments:

♥  a fun picture my lovely friend M. sent me *it totally made my day - as always*

♥  Modern Family *I literally watched all episodes again!*

♥  The Vampire Diaries *hello!!????!!* I simply love Thursday night

♥  Taco Tuesday with well, myself

♥  the sun coming out, even just for a little

The rest of this past week was filled with sleeping, dreaming, contemplating, wishing, feeling better, and trying to do something. However, as you may know my life it is pretty lame. My friends live in another country, and the very few ones I have here...oh well, no comment. I hate it when people say "if you're not busy and have time...". Have we met? Do you know me? I guess NO applies to all of these questions. Sad. Oh well.

Next week will hopefully be better.
And if not, you can bet I will make it better!!!!

xoxo,

♥ Selma ♥

Sunny Fun

Yes, it's been beautifully sunny over here and NO, I'm not rubbing it in your face. Not even a little. ;)
We've been having great weather...I'm sorry for everyone else trying to drive or walk through snow and ice and all...I feel with ya. I seriously do because believe it or not next week I'm going to be doing the same exact thing. So not looking forward to it, but it's what it is. :(

It's been so gorgeous I want to wake up every day at 6 and go out for a run or walk or something. However, I sprained my toe last week and I'm in pain...so I have to wait a little longer until I get back to my own healthy self. ;)

So, instead of waking up at 6 I wake up at 8, catch up on some shows, have breakfast, and then go out for a walk. I either stroll around a mall, read a book on a bench, look at palm trees, play with dogs, watch a movie, pick up my friend from work, shop, or just chill...but it's always outside! :) YES. I'm glad I'm over here, walking in my sandals or flip flops in January. To get the winter feeling we went to a snow area whereas I was expecting cold temperatures...temps are colder, yes, but still warm for me. 65 degrees is not cold, even when snow is around. Sorry everyone but I did not bundle up as much. ;)

Life's good to me.

I'm happy again.
And this is what counts, no?

As crazy and banal as it may be it's the truth and I literally look forward to every day.
Let's hope I take some of that positive energy with me, and work on my future so I can say "every day is a perfect day!!!! - no matter how awful it all may be". Keep your fingers crossed. :)

I'm gonna miss it. Big time.
There are no words. I have no words.
So I let go and leave you all with this....



Happy Tuesday everyone.

Hope your week goes as planned, and for me goes super super slow.


xoxo,

♥ Selma ♥

Have Yourself A Very Merry...well, optimism

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I couldn't agree more.

I have been lacking in that department.
I blame it on reading the newspaper...and watching news and all.
It keeps me informed, but at the same time leaves me puzzled, speechless, angry, scared, and just so very annoyed. Quite sad actually.
Where are those fun days when you turned on the TV and those news seemed to be uplifting and not so gray?

I turned my TV off today, grabbed my book and continued reading.
And to make my weekend even more spectacular...everything I packed is now waiting to be packed again, because I had a little crisis going on and took everything out again. Who knows what happened, I just had a the strong urge to start from scratch again...and that's when it hit me. Optimism is key, and optimism is needed (hence the above picture). 

And I'm going to stay positive so all those germs out there won't get to me. I had people sneezing around me, not at all covering up anything. Naturally I was pissed, and naturally I will blame these exact people if I get sick!!!! Use your hands, or sleeves or whatever else but don't just sit or stand there and sneeze out loud so I can literally see spit and whatnot flying around. Very disgusting, very gross, and so very wrong. 

Happy Saturday!!!!

♥ Selma ♥

I vote for nap time - it helps!

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Today is not a very good day.
I felt fine at first, slept in and all...the usual routine! ;)

Though during the afternoon a certain very uncomfortable rush of chest pain arrived and it wasn't funny. It's a weird kind of pain, it makes you believe you're running out of air and the walls around you would come closer and closer each minute that passes. I also have to say, looking in the mirror I looked worse than those vampires in the Twilight Saga movies...so I headed home the second it happened. Weirdest thing though was that music calmed me down. Thank goodness for my iPod in my bag at all times. Wouldn't know what to do without one. I took a nap the minute I got home. So far, so good.

Things will change and I'm hoping for some entertaining movie night.
Going out, yes! To the movies and no it's not a date...just me and my movie people. Yes, I have movie people...ok, movie watching people to be correct. We watch it all, and today in honor of Halloween this past weekend...we're going to watch a horror movie. :) Can't wait. Let's hope it calms me down, too. 

And to my lovely US friends and bloggies out there...have you voted yet?! 

No matter what you decide it is important to stand up for what you believe is the right thing. 

If I could, I know I would vote and I know how I would vote. No one could change my mind.

So if you haven't, go out and do so.

That's about it for right now.
Tuesday's been not a very good day today but this will change.

And I just realized I want a tattoo. Ok, weird I know, and so very random as my last thought today.

Hope you're doing fine!!

xoxo,


♥ Selma ♥

Crazy Monday Randomness

When you have free time on your hands and not so much to do with it your mind goes crazy. In a good way, that is. Your mind wanders and lets you remember things, lets you look at things differently, lets you dream and lets you hope. It shows you ideas, helps you imagine and it just goes round and round...with so much time and so much heavy work going on up there it's no wonder I'm feeling dizzy. So, here's what I liked about last week and what I'm looking forward to this week. In no particular order that is. ;)

♥  sunshine (finally!)

♥  lunch/dessert time with my friend before her departure (see you soon again N!!)

♥ Criminal Minds

♥  Halloween!!

♥  Quotes

♥  Magnolia Wednesdays

I told you once I'm trying real hard to find happiness and tranquility.
It's not easy but it's what keeps me going. Every day I find something new that either makes me laugh, smile, or just enjoy life. This can vary from a quote or a colorful leaf to a movie or a weird comment on my facebook page. :) Apparently I need to wear big, pink fuzzy slippers to the grocery store!

So today I'm literally sharing random things with you.
Ready?! Yes? Good. ;)

A family is a place where minds come in contact with one another. If these minds love one another, the home will be as beautiful as a flower garden. But if these minds get out of harmony with one another it is like a storm that plays havoc with the garden.

the Buddha 

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I love the above picture. It has fall written all over. At least I think so.

And another quote:

I'm thankful for my years spent with this family; for everything we shared, every chance we had to grow. I'll take the best of them and lead by their example; wherever I go. A friend told me to be honest with you, so here it goes. This isn't what I want, but I'll take the high road. maybe it's because I look at everything as a lesson, or I don't want to walk around angry. Or maybe it's because I finally understand. There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept; things we don't want to know, but have to learn, and people we can't live without, but have to let go.

A.J. Cook

And since Halloween is pretty much around the corner and I miss it (if I ever get to have my own house, I will go crazy decorating!!)...here's some things I found and love. I told ya, very random.

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Oh yes, my mind goes crazy. Besides the above mentioned and all the cute little tumblr pictures I'm also constantly thinking about whether or not I should visit Louisiana or not, and if so, what kind of suitcase I should travel with and when so how I'm going to do all of this. Lots of thinking, lots of weird things, lots of ridiculous randomness it drives me nuts. I keep myself balanced with some of my favorite shows, nailpolish I need to use and can work with, Christmas presents (yes, I just need three more and I'm done!), laundry, and movies that keep me distracted, entertained and amused. :) It's not a lot, and it's not getting me anywhere but it's something. It's better than staying in bed with boredom. It's better than crying, and it's better than working where I used to work. Trust me on this, I am well aware that I need to work on my life and need to find a job and all that but you can also be very sure that I'm well aware of the fact that I'm better off without the job I had. Sometimes it takes longer to accept this, and it takes sometimes months or years to realize this but the time has come and I am grateful for that specific moment. It was some time this June where I was literally told I'm not good enough, practically stupid. I know I'm not, because honestly (and quite sadly) I was the only one in that work place with a college degree. This already told me that I'm not stupid, but I may just be different and not fit for this area or that work. I realized I needed something new, and needed something better. It's those moments that show the true face of life, and the true face of love. So, can you see where I'm going with this? No? Neither can I.
I'm telling you, it's been an awful week. Lots of ups and downs. More downs than ups and at times I just thought I'd lose it all together. Of course I didn't and I'm thankful for that. I was and slightly am a huge mess. However, I was able to book a flight to L.A., and look forward to time away and time in a place I miss and love. It's what counts, right? It's what should count no matter what. So, my crazy mind goes round and round and so far it doesn't seem to stop. Maybe better so. Let's hope it has something in store for me, something that will help me reach my happy goal, so I can spice this site up with more happier posts. Ok?! Okay!!!

With that said, I'm hoping you all had a fabulous weekend.
And let's hope you're all going to have an even better week...I know I will...starting with a visit to the dental lady. Yes. How fantastic for a Monday!! Just what I needed. 

The crazy little writer...

xoxo,

♥ Selma ♥

Done

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Let's hope this quote is true.

Exhausted, lonely, empty, but with a medium sized coffee cup walking my entire way home...all I could think of was "That's it. I'm done. And now?". It was weird walking out of there not knowing what comes next. It was weird looking at everything and quietly saying good-bye. I will return though because I need to turn in my keys and everything...and I still need to sign something too apparently (my cell rang twice when I got home, so I had to call back and see what the problem was. No biggie, but people make a big fuss about something that's so not important right now!). So let me relax, and heal...and find my path.

Happy Friday everyone.
I'm not in the mood for any Fill In activity nor Friday Funny fun.
Hopefully next week.

All I need now is to relax...officially Saturday and Sunday are my two days off so I'm going to enjoy my two days...with lots of sleep, and a bit more of sleep! And if I don't sleep I'm gonna try and catch up on much needed blog reading. :)

Have a fabulous weekend.

♥ Selma ♥

Oh no

It's Wednesday morning and I woke up with some weird headache not really knowing what hit me. Maybe it was the beer from last night (gotta love our German brewery), maybe it's my lack of sleep lately, maybe it's stress at work (we're back at being yelled at!), or maybe it's just stress and this awful fog hovering over us and not going anywhere. :( And yes, this fog is killing me. If this continues I will have problems again. A year after I moved back here I got so incredibly sick I thought my life was about to end. This fog triggered my lung problems (yes, all true - go ask my doctors! Yes plural!) and it was one thing I don't want to experience again. Now, when I go out I just bundle up like crazy and try to breathe as little as possible (which is almost impossible, we know that).

Officially I have only three more work days. That my friends will change quite some bit in my life. Not sure how and when but it just has to. I wanna cry right now because 1) I loved working with people, and speaking three different languages in a minute and juggling all kinds of things and being the boss when no one's around *yes, we were literally put in that position* and 2) my monthly income wasn't the best but it was money that came right into my account and that will stop now.  

However, maybe it's for the better. Scratch that one...I know it is for the better. I'm not 20 anymore where people can try to push me left and right and use me for that matter. I'm not a pushover. I have the right to have my say in things, and I'm strong enough to stand up for what I want or in this case don't want. My life and my health are more important than a regular salary. I started noticing things that won't be mentioned on here that scared me and made me realize that I needed to change things, and that fast. So I know this is going to be a good thing, despite my current shivers and moments of anxiety towards that topic.

 both photos via we ♥ it

I literally hate it when people ask me what I am going to do next.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do and as frightening as this may be I think it's a wonderful thing, too. It's going to be me-time!!! Like, literally me-time. :) 

Ok, enough said, well written...gotta go. I need to rest my mind.

And yes, I may be a bit MIA with comments and such in the new few days/weeks...why? Well, my reader is exploding, sometimes it doesn't even open up, and I'm unfortunately in no mood to comment on your lovely blogs. However, I'm reading them all...if it's fashion, life lessons, scary stories, recipes, problems, or just the regular random stuff you all talk about...I read it all. :) And to 99.9% it always makes me think and smile!

Three more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOW!

xoxo

♥ Selma ♥