March 7, 2013

It will get better


Sometimes I wish I had a portal to go through.
Today is one of those days.
Time flies, we all know that.
Once we lose someone close we realize this even more.
Today is a good day.
Yes, it is.
It is the reminder of why I am back here in my California.
It is the day that changed not only my life but others too.
If nothing like that happened I'd probably still be in Europe, miserable.
Or, I'd be in Europe doing something I don't want to be doing.
If nothing happened two years ago, your brother would not be in Australia right now.
He's like me, traveling and living abroad.
I know he would have done it sooner or later but I know he did it sooner. Just because.

Two years ago you just made me mad.
I blamed you. Then I blamed whoever was driving.
Then I blamed no one.
Turned out, well, no one was at fault.
My ridiculous intelligent professor would say you went with your passion.
That passion shaped you.
That passion led you to be where you were that morning.
And yes, it ultimately ended your life.
Call it fate or destiny.
I call it purpose.
Thank you, J.
You know why.
Today is a good day.
Yes, it is.
And I know... 



Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

I certainly hope it will get better...

Courtney said...

Hugs. Chin up girl, it WILL get better. The past won't ever change, but it will continue to change you. And it will lead you to places you never dreamed of.

Mree said...

It will get better!! Hugs, Mree

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

I hope that your day did get better - sending hugs!

Sierra {Ocean Dreams} said...

Hugs sweet girl. You'll be able to see her one day in heaven...thinking of you!


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