Time Flies

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Three years ago at pretty much this exact time I heard of an accident.
It is incredible and impossible to describe how one feels when any reality becomes one's own.

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Three years have passed.

Three years you have been missed.
So much has changed and happened, you won't believe it.

Every day I am here I am thankful. I am here because of you.

Time flies and it is just crazy.
There are moments I still think you are around, and catch myself accidentally asking my mom if you went to a family event, too. I then clean up my mess and say something that rhymes with or sounds like your name.
I breathe heavily after that.

To me, you are still around.
To me, you just celebrated your 23rd birthday, and welcomed your brother back from Australia.

To me, you still roll your eyes on how silly your dad acts at times.
To me, you rock out to your favorites tunes in clubs.

To me, you travel and you smile and you want to come visit California.

To me, you live in all kinds of things but especially in sunrises and sunsets.

Life goes on. Life is good.
I am happy where I am.
Yes, I miss home incredibly. Every day.
I miss walking to my favorite cafe, I miss bumping into people I know - including you.
I miss the smell of the lake in the summer, and our Carnival season.

I miss our family. I miss my friends.

However, you know what?
You have showed me that life is short.
You have taught me to do what I want to do and be the person I need to be.

I sacrifice a lot by not being home, by not spending time with family and friends as often as I would like to.
Yet, I am living my life and I am being happy...

...but you know that already.

Thank you, J. 

Take care.

We miss you.

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