September 6, 2010

I Gotta Feeling...


This (look above, please, look above!) is what awaits us over here. I have to admit I'm kinda looking forward to seeing and feeling fall weather but does it really have to rain? Again?! It depresses me just to think about it. I mean, hasn't it rained enough last month?! Why is this coming back? So either way this week looks like it's going to be a wet one. 

How was your weekend?!
Hope you all enjoyed this long weekend and just had a fabulous time.

Me?!
I worked. Hard. It's what I do, and it's what's needed. Every day.

Sometimes I have a few moments to myself and wonder if this is ever going to change. I know it will and I know it has to but will it, really?! I'm having quite some pessimistic thoughts lately which isn't good. Nothing helps. My thoughts are so negative it's not funny anymore. It's rather scary. I can't find anything that would guide me into the right direction. Nothing.
Not even a message from one of my best and oldest friends. I received an incredibly simple but good email yesterday and its impact on me shocked me. I started crying. Just a little bit but I did. I admit that much. The email was, as mentioned earlier, very simple...random stuff my friend and I exchange on an almost weekly basis on what we've done, watched, read, felt, ate, and all that...the usual stuff friends exchange. Normally I think we would do this in person over yummy foods or a drink, or over the phone or something but we live miles away so our weekly emails have to do the job. Glad I have her in my life. Moreover though, her email made me cry. Nothing negative in her email, just that she can't visit right now, but other than that...all positive news and stuff. So, why did I cry?! Who knows. I'm an emotional wreck. All I want to do is go out and scream. Maybe I should do that. It may liberate me. It may help. It may make it worse but who knows. Should I try to go out and scare my neighbors???


So, I gotta feeling...it's going to be a weird week with all kinds of mixed emotions, strange ideas, question marks all over the place, and nowhere to hide or run to.

Hope you are all having a fabulous day ahead of you!

xoxo, 

♥ Selma ♥

7 comments :

Krystal said...

I can't believe it's been so long since you've seen a cow!! they are practically my neighbors out here though :)
and whoa, yeah...here we go again with this rain...I think this has cured me of my living in seattle obsession...

Meghan said...

Sometimes rain can be good for the soul - cuddling up with some tea and a good book:) I hope this week is a good one for you and moves quickly!

Kristin said...

It was kind of an ugly overcast weekend here...AND it was hot. The least the weather could do is cool down if it's going to be gloomy. HA!

Mara said...

aw I'm sorry you've been having bad thoughts. I'd suggest doing something like running to get out the aggression (or kick boxing haha). And do something fun for yourself. Hopefully that will help! Love you Selma xox

♥ Katinka said...

Hey Girl,

hope you are feeling a little better. Stay positive !!!!! lots of love from Germany!!! :)

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Maybe you can buy some super cute rain boots to wear in that dreary rain! At least that'll brighten it up!

samnhal said...

I know how you feel with this. I was totally at this point last November when I felt like I was going so crazy and so I got in the shower crying with all of my clothes on. It seems so crazy to say that I did that out loud...or typed, but yeah, it helped me. Sometimes you just need that moment of breakdown so you can start rebuilding.

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