October 13, 2010

Oh no


It's Wednesday morning and I woke up with some weird headache not really knowing what hit me. Maybe it was the beer from last night (gotta love our German brewery), maybe it's my lack of sleep lately, maybe it's stress at work (we're back at being yelled at!), or maybe it's just stress and this awful fog hovering over us and not going anywhere. :( And yes, this fog is killing me. If this continues I will have problems again. A year after I moved back here I got so incredibly sick I thought my life was about to end. This fog triggered my lung problems (yes, all true - go ask my doctors! Yes plural!) and it was one thing I don't want to experience again. Now, when I go out I just bundle up like crazy and try to breathe as little as possible (which is almost impossible, we know that).

Officially I have only three more work days. That my friends will change quite some bit in my life. Not sure how and when but it just has to. I wanna cry right now because 1) I loved working with people, and speaking three different languages in a minute and juggling all kinds of things and being the boss when no one's around *yes, we were literally put in that position* and 2) my monthly income wasn't the best but it was money that came right into my account and that will stop now.  
However, maybe it's for the better. Scratch that one...I know it is for the better. I'm not 20 anymore where people can try to push me left and right and use me for that matter. I'm not a pushover. I have the right to have my say in things, and I'm strong enough to stand up for what I want or in this case don't want. My life and my health are more important than a regular salary. I started noticing things that won't be mentioned on here that scared me and made me realize that I needed to change things, and that fast. So I know this is going to be a good thing, despite my current shivers and moments of anxiety towards that topic.

 both photos via we ♥ it

I literally hate it when people ask me what I am going to do next.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do and as frightening as this may be I think it's a wonderful thing, too. It's going to be me-time!!! Like, literally me-time. :) 

Ok, enough said, well written...gotta go. I need to rest my mind.
And yes, I may be a bit MIA with comments and such in the new few days/weeks...why? Well, my reader is exploding, sometimes it doesn't even open up, and I'm unfortunately in no mood to comment on your lovely blogs. However, I'm reading them all...if it's fashion, life lessons, scary stories, recipes, problems, or just the regular random stuff you all talk about...I read it all. :) And to 99.9% it always makes me think and smile!

Three more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOW!

xoxo

♥ Selma ♥

7 comments :

Marcie said...

Hang in there, these are growing pains we all go through. You are not alone.

Those quotes are amazing, and I totally agree with the first one. We need to all take more risks and try, for it is in that we can really achieve our best self.

xo M

The SSS Sophisticate said...

Don't worry about what you are going to do next! Life is an adventure, take one step at a time!

ag. said...

Love that first photo...so so true! I hope you enjoy your me time!

Krystal said...

happy thursday my dear, hope it is good for you!

samnhal said...

Three more days until you're free! Free to be you and please only yourself until you find what you want to do! Yay! Live it up!

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

Hang in there!

Lacey in the City said...

Congratulations on your changes and your search for you-time. You deserve it. Keep your head up, give yourself reasons to smile, and keep on keeping on, girl. xoxox

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